thank God we can’t see what is heading our way next….or we would pack life in!
I think humans are created equally, but they make different choices.
But I find it hard to see why some people seem to swan through life effortlessly….others….most others don’t!
On my more philosophical days, I may say to someone:
…”This IS real life!” When am asked “when will life ever go back to normal?”
…Or when am met with ” oh why mean” – I DO sometimes answer the “everyone has real shit to deal with at some time!!”
….But more often than NOT am convinced there are a few slimy, nasty, bastards…who seem to get through life fairly uninjured!
But I actually believe now that the HONEST reason for depression is that it is a perfectly natural reaction to how tough life is!
But if anyone mapped out a life and handed it to me and I had seen what was coming….I may have asked for an exchange…
Life has great great moments..so incredibly great that they will never be forgotten… And…..BUT….jesus it is often that there are periods of HELL…when so much layers of crap get thrown at you!
I am having a period of life when am barely treading water…feels at times you are just getting moving and then more crap is dumped and you start again…
I amn’t in it alone – thankfully.
This is a load of happenings in my life AND those immediately in my life..my friends..my family…my extended family
We are presently dealing with things that NOBODY should have to deal with – even one at a time….but these are layered up…and just when you feel…nothing else could possibly go wrong…you turn a corner and are hit with MORE
Really sick children
Mental health problems
Tests and more tests
Close loved ones dying
Retirement due to illhealth
I stood today crying at an aunts Funeral – wondering who was next , silently. But I know already I was wrong. I know who it is.
Am typing this in hospital ward with my aspergers son. His 6th admission for a 5 week constant headache. We don’t know cause yet…so more tests and scans…
Yet I know I have a friends baby – who is so ill that I am not the worst off mammy.
Why the hell is life this tough?
Why on same people?
It really is just as well we have no idea, what is coming next…..we just would give up?
Or is that just me?
Let me breathe?