how do i stop feeling hurt?
i feel emotions. i Need to. That’s what gives my music beauty.
to be a good interpretive musician i need to be able to feel the music at a deep level.
the highs, the lows, the peaks and troughs….then i can use them in performance.
so i NEED to feel the extremes of high and low…
in life that leaves me very vulnerable.
open to good days and bad spells…but that is i think a REAL reaction to experiencing life.
but it HURTS
maybe not even aware of how deeply.
It hurts if:
- am not included
- am not spoken to
- am unimportant
- am not believed
- am lied about
- am replaced
- am wronged
but HURTS mainly when these are done in a small way but by a person that matters a LOT.
so what do i do?
continue to HURT?
to feel PAIN?
feel excluded and undervalued?
or do i TOUGHEN UP…grow a pair…create an exterior that protects me from these feelings?
but if i LOSe my vulnerability, i lose my sensitivity.
that was the gift that GOD gave me…to make MY music as it is…i don’t want reserve and restrictions there in my expression…
so I need to manage to continue.
that is my better option as always…
my VULNERABILITY is my emotional awareness.
that is not a weakness to a creative person, although it makes their life tougher,
it is the STRENGTH to express FULLY and OPENLY
i don’t ever want to lose that honest direct me…
so learn to read me…