Hate them…but HAVE them…fact!
you’d expect them after a marathon, a big day of gardening, a night out…
i hate that aspect of it.
over the last year have had to accept them.
this weekend i can only assume that the recovery is from the mundane efforts of being a mammy-
no! i am not disrespecting MAMMY role…
but the parts that i assume triggered last night and today feeling –
- HUGE pain,
- sight blurred
- more neck pain
- weak as water
but people with chronic pain HAVE these recovery days!
were backing the children’s school books on Friday night –
not heavy work.
but bending forward and back for a few hours.
and YES have an obstinate me that WILL do them in one go!
can’t switch that off altogether.
and then yesterday, i framed photographs….long overdue.
2 years and more of this
so had again to bend forward and back
leaning over and sitting upright again.
i DID feel it in my back.
but it NEEDED to be done.
milestone- i DID something visible.
but i woke during the night feeling ROTTEN
and today i should have been away with family to my in-laws.
but instead an hour and a half after eating the breakfast made for me, i am now downstairs.
armed with next drugs cocktail…pillow…blanket.
i cannot argue with the grey feeling
from HEAD ti TOE
(but in my case…mostly from my HEAD)
i feel ROTTEN
my chiari is flaring its ugly head in terms of symptoms
and when my BRAIN says REST…
even if my body wants to say no…
so every organ listens