long term pain causes you to be housebound a lot.
long term fatigue leaves you outdoors very little.
long term makes it difficult for others to appreciate you could still be ill.
it is almost a year of sitting in the same physical and emotional space.
very very lonely.
and smiling as best i can.
keeping a superficial life going on social media
knowing it is purely a superficial pretense fro real human contact
and getting more lonely