I have in the last fortnight been honoured 3 times, by two bloggers who i respect and admire, and by a past pupil and awarded these awards.:
This has winded me each time, as being Irish and a mother i find guilt easier to take on than praise.
The first award, I was given by a friend. I am lucky to have held on to many relationships that i had formed initially as teacher-pupil but bing a music teacher, means a lot of what i do, and what i encourage involves close emotional expression and openness. A great musician cannot be guarded…in my classroom. When i look at my “friends” nowadays, so many of them began as pupils. i LOVE that aspect of music. This compliment from a musician who has academically gone far beyond where i brought her, was beautiful. I am very proud of her.
I would like to thank https://missaar.wordpress.com for nominating me for the One Lovely Blog Award. It’s my first nomination, so I am excited and honoured for the acknowledgement. missaar writes as a creative woman, openly rebuilding her life as a stronger more determined female. Her blog features strong visual imagery, and i really love the images of people she uses in her writing, i LOVE the personification i imagine in the choices of subjects used in the black and white photos which accompany and illustrate her musing…… Please visit her blog!
- in one week and 5 days, my mam will be one year dead. And it doesn’t get any easier.Mam had alzheimers, for quite a few years and was completely cared for by my dad. My sister and i were priviliged to in the last week of mam’s life, when mam became physically ill, stay with her 24/7. It was a week of “resharing the bedroom” and reliving and recalling the memories. It was special.
- yesterday i had to order and accept that i NEED to order a motability scooter. I HATED the admission that i needed it but the choice is to remain functioning outside the community i belonged in, and it is better for my children if i bite the bullet and accept the help and we GO OUT, thn the assumption mam will be staying at home. It was a big and difficult step, but i know was right.
- As a musician I am emotional, open, expressive and do not hold back. The downside of this is i feel the high ends of emotion and the lows. But i would not like to change that, as my musicianship defines me.
- i played viola at school – 6 grades later i still hated every note.
- i experience through serious abuse and misuse of power twice in my 50 years of life. Once as a child of 10. The other just a few years ago. I choose not to elaborate on either…The shock for me was that people are wiling to be convinced of things which to me they should know NEVER to believe, by a manipulative person. I don’t think i have or will ever recover fully from the experience as it amazed me, damaged me and lost a few valuable friends… Misuse of power is unforgivable in any situation.
- i would LOVE to meet and provide choir music for Pope Francis. He is the only Pope in my lifetime who resonates with me. I am not a big fan of institutionalisation and specifically professional clericalisation. but at heart i am a catholic, although I do not adhere to church rules currently- for personal reasons and this Pope i am drawn to. My music is my offering.
- had i not been a teacher of maths and music i wanted to be a pathologist. I found the maths the most INCREDIBLE right subject there is. there is a perfection which can be attained in maths and not in any other area of life. QED.:)