what do i miss ?


chronicme

what do i miss?

Ability

I miss being ABLE

going for walks

BENDING over

being automatically part of the choice

mornings

waking and jumping out of bed

the school runs

making dinner

standing up to put on make up

planning

choices

could choose anything to do

ability to walk pain free

pain-free-ness

simplicity

standing up in the shower.

planning for retirement with conviction

going out.

any outfit fitted

hair was easy to do

BENDING

when i could hurry

pilates

“rolling like a ball”

“catstretch”

feeling able

being needed

being important to people

being invited

FRIENDS

visiting

day trips

quick decisions

MOVING

being spoken to

phone calls

lunch

not hurting everywhere

not going anywhere without planning and recovering

implicity

being understood

not knowing medical terms as everyday language

inclusion

being SEEN as i was

taking things for granted

assuming i can

the old me.

the valued ME.

my lack of true comprehension of disablity

my ignorance of slow chronic pain

being 6

mammy

ME.

the simple easy me.

Hx

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