entitlement to be able
friends who left me
sleep JUST natural not pain and drug induced.
youth and energy – but these i replaced by age and wisdom
control of my shape
the wife i was before she became his patient
belief in people
grieving is ongoing
background to living.
but we learn from it in ways we couldn’t see at the time
scars are marks of battle won
time does not take away grief.
we learn to make some pain experience