CAN I REALISTICALLY SET MYSELF A TARGET?
but the alternative now is to degenerate slowly…nothing stays the same.
I see disabled people who have LIVES and i WANT one of THOSE…please god – that’s all!
I want a NEW life.
With the NEW ME.
i can’t sleep myself away hour by hour
my family deserve more fight from me…as they carry me..at least i could TRY to help.
when i look at holiday photos and i wonder HOW would this sedentary ME manage a holiday , I am really refusing it for my family.
Tomorrow AGAIN …
WE GO AGAIN.
I SET THE CLOCK MYSELF and i TRY.
not a half hearted try.
i want a FULL DISABLED LIFE!.. that’s all?
lots of people readjust…
am scared shitless.
who am i fooling.
i am fighting a brain which is gradually fighting each part of my body, and my emotional pool is running dry.
i look at this picture of people LIVING with whatever their story befor this was, they are LIVING the NEW story…i WANT one.
a new LIFE please!
and i want to LIVE it!
new happy ones.
don’t leave me trying alone.
this is my NEWEST step.