People get what they deserve in time.  

Except they don’t. 

They really don’t. 

Nice people get crosses to carry and total shits do not pay. 

Have stopped believing that one. 

I do my best. And I watch others. 


No way. 

There is NO justice in this world. 



  1. Helen I so wish I could help you in some meaningful and significant way. I continue to pray for you and tonight I sat down and wrote something for you and included some Scripture verses. I hope that it helps in some small way or at least doesn’t offend in any way. Love and hugs, N 🙂 ❤

    Although my chronic pain is not as intense and perhaps as constant and debilitating as you, but I do know from experience that it can be very difficult to see God’s hand in chronic pain. And in dealing with chronic pain there is a grieving process, feelings of purposeless, and loss of identity. As a result here are periods of shock and numbness, denial, anger, disorientation, and intense emotional suffering because chronic illness robs sufferers of many aspects of life. However, it cannot take from them their greatest freedom—the freedom to choose God in the midst of their suffering, to seek His glory despite their pain. They(we) can choose to become bitter about the illness, or they(we) can choose to use it as a catalyst for growth. In so doing they choose not to focus on what they cannot do but instead to look for opportunities to use the abilities they do have to honor God. They(we) can choose to believe that the most significant seasons of their(our) lives are past, or they(we) can choose to believe God's Word—that He delights in using the weak to confound the wise and that His power is made perfect in their(our) weakness. For I'vve found that it is possible to live a fairly full and meaningful life despite having compromised health by using the daily struggles as a springboard for spiritual, relational, and emotional growth. Some even launch themselves into new ministries, careers, and friendships by finding ways to cope with the limitations and to adjust to the new “normal.” So I've learned to do the best I can with what remains to me to be able to do because I simply refuse to be defined by the pain and what it has taken away from me. A lot of doors are closed forevermore, but the Lord has opened doors to blessings and experience I never imagined would come to pass.

    Ecclesiastes 11:10 So then, banish anxiety from your heart and cast off the troubles of your body, for youth and vigor are meaningless.

    Ecclesiastes 12:1 Remember your Creator in the days of your youth, before the days of trouble come and the years approach when you will say, “I find no pleasure them”—

    Ecclesiastes 12:14 For God will bring every deed into judgment, including every hidden thing, whether it is good or evil. For God will bring every deed into judgment, including every hidden thing, whether it is good or evil.

    John 16: 33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

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